Cymru Bhoy Post

I apologise Cymru, but there was a real chance your post would be lost among the *. (particularly from me) It deserved a reading, and not hidden away mid thread.

It touched me more than i let on and im still dwelling on it 12 hours later.

For those who missed it:



As a general 'newbie' on this great site I feel I have a kind of advantage of not knowing anyone personally & as such can divulge things id never dream of in a 'normal' setting. You don't know me, I don't know you, that in itself is a strength.
In previous threads, people may heve picked up on the fact my health isn't too good, in fact if I was a horse, they would probably shoot me... & at times I'd have been grateful if they had.
I am faced with my own mortality. It could happen as I'm writing this but it will probably happen within the next 12 months. (But would I love to see 10 in a row first).
The thing is, whilst living my life like this I don't worry about my self strangely, what bothers me most are the people we leave behind. I'll miss my pints with my grown son, hope to see his first born by next June, miss the warmth of my Mrs legs crossed over me in bed, already miss the love making but I never thought holding someone's hand in dark silence would be one of the most emotional experiences I've ever had. Touch & words can mean so much more if we allow them to.
Therefore, whilst my mortal coil is still here I am trying to 'create' events that they will undoubtedly look back upon in time & smile about me. No rows. No confrontations. Just show them love & a willingness not to just fade away but to still contribute as much as possible.
I have been extremely close to death twice, it isn't nice, but I don't expect being born was a great experience either, I have no afterlife or religious belief to strengthen me. I fought to stay alive & at the last score it's 2:0 to me, (but I don't like the look of the Russian linesman!).
I don't really know what I'm trying to say (as it definitely could be the meds) except that when we miss a deceased relative, we know they had a good time, maybe they didn't have the life & trappings of a king or Queen but they had you. & my son & my Mrs had me. And I know that what they/we had really does last forever.
Sorry if I offended anyone.

 

Cymru Bhoy,you've offended nobody mate.
Reading your post really has put things into perspective for me,and for that I say thank you.
We're all here for you mate

 

A really touching, emotional post. * wee tear in my eye at this time, e.otions run ing high today and all that

Bless ye Cymru

 

On a day when we think of nothing but a game of football after reading this it really does make me think again.* bless you mate and your family.

 

Good idea to put this in it's own thread MGM, very grim reading and very emotional.

All the best to you Cymru, your positivity is an inspiration to us all.

 

All the best to you Cymru great touching thoughts from your heart , the love of your family will be a great support in this time and today St Brendan will put a smile as wide as the Clyde on your face mate and will cheer you up no end

 

Lost for words, very emotional post.

 

Lovely post and there is absolutely no need to apologise to anyone.
If they can get offended at such a heartfelt post then they are not welcome on this site as far as i am concerned.

 

Beautiful and tragic in equal measure

 

It's a bit unfair that such as emotional & thoughtful man, feels able to share his soul with strangers.
We often don't really know the people who are closest to us.
I'm glad there are places where we can share this part of ourselves, but I'm a bit sad that it's not with the our nearest & dearest.
Peace brother, we try our best & carry on (often in silence).

 

Amazingly brave and thoughtful post mate. Things like that go on in the heart of your loved ones for ever.

Hail hail.

 

Firstly, no apology needed for using the post, it's an open forum & secondly I'd like to thank everyone for all their kind words & advice. My intention really was to just have an input in a thread on 'our mortality' & I kinda gave my take on the circumstances in which I find myself.
My family & friends are well aware of my feelings & we are at this moment going on the emotional Big Dipper, apparently, the louder you scream, the faster it goes!
Having said that, it felt good to have an outlet (TC) without the emotional bond in the way, & you guys provided that. Sympathy, of course. Empathy, no doubt. Pity, no feckin chance! lol.
If my earlier post as made anyone maybe a little disillusioned with their lot or a bit down, I'm sorry, I really didn't mean to come across as a 'be grateful for what you've got' person.
Take what you've got, look at it & make it better. If I were alone with my mother or father for that matter I'd like to think that that particular relationship would be the best it could be.

Chess challenge on its way later MGM & no pulling the punches.

Time for egg on toast now, then it's Rangers for dinner - served cold!

 

Puts things into perspective.

Brave post and good luck with everything!

 

Put everything in perspective. * bless you mate

 

I hope your remaining days are filled with joy, and that there are a lot more of them than you expect. Ynwa.

 

Best wishes.

 

Good luck mate, i read your post the other day and it really put things in perspective. All the best to you and your family CymruBhoy YNWA

 

Yes the very best of luck mate,your post really does put everything into perspective,i also wish all the very best to you and your family.Your fellow Celtic fans on here are thinking of you.

 

i would like to wish you all the best mate, keep posting on the forum as it
can be a good outlet to share your thoughts or just to lighten the mood if
feeling down. keep up the fight and we are all behind you mo chara

 

Thoughts are with you and yours matey