Have You Ever Felt Suicidal?

selfish? yes
cowardly? no, in a way its the ultimate form of bravery, i know im too much of a shitebag to do it
you must be * up in the head to go through with it

i few thoughts have creeped into my head now and again but it was just the drugs talking. happens to everyone at one point imo

i think its the feeling of being useless and unloved, and anyone considering suicide or has done it has my sympathy. Its like they are looking for attention, even if they wont be alive to see it. If you have someone you know who has done it, and your still considering calling them a coward and selfish, then to me your a liar, if you where at thier funeral you wouldnt be saying that after

too many people lie about bad things happening to them so they make thier life more interesting, more like a film, those people i feel sorry for most of all

 

Cowardly and selfish, aye, agreed.
You don't have the right to take your own life, it's the cowards way out.
If you feel that * in your life you need to go get help.
Not trying to sound harsh but that's how I see it.

 

Never seriously considered killing myself I couldnt and wouldnt do that to any of my friends and loved ones, I lost my sister in an accident and the hurt I've experienced I would never to two fold to my family.

I beleive I have been proper depressed before though, back around the 2nd half of 2009 I truly felt I was useless and nothing and the aul "It would all be better without me" type of crak.

I was just young and stupid it was over this girlfriend I had for 3 years breaking it off, it was just made worse that my mates didnt really give me a hand at all and I didnt really get much help, loada bollix in the end but I never seriously considered killing myself over anything stupid like that.

Recently one of my sisters friends boyfriend killed himself, everyone was shocked to the core, he was out that night having great crak and then when home and hung himself something must of either just snapped or he was depressed beneath it all, his brother found him I dont want to imagine what that would be like.

He's after leaving a Girlfriend, daughter, family and a town full of mates behind its * awful, I only hope its thought everyone local about the horrors of suicide.

* sake just talk to someone if your feeling *.

 

I haven't for the reason I could never put my family through that.

 

No i havent considered doing it ever couldnt put my family through that at all....

 

As someone who has struggled with depression for most of my life and has considered suicide at various stages, I am even getting emotional trying to write this post. It is not something I enjoy talking about, nor am I proud of the fact that I have thought about suicide in the past. It is very hard to explain how it feels to get to the point when you start seriously considering suicide. It is a feeling of pain and suffering that gnaws away at your soul. It is a loss of any or all hope, only utter despair. You already feel dead inside.

I would not call most people who commit suicide a coward or selfish. I would not say that about my brother. I would not say it about a close friend. I'm sure they had their reasons. You have to understand how debilitating depression can be, how a seemingly healthy person can become dysfunctional due to it. How you can slowly lose the will to live and you just want the pain and suffering to end. It is a horrible feeling to have. Really just plain horrible.

 

I would say people who commit suicide after killing someone are complete and utter cowards.But not people that are deeply and emotionally depressed.

I have been really down and upset in my life and its horrible but I have never considered killing myself. So I would hate to think about how depressed people that kill themselves or have considered killing themselves actually are.

I pray that I never feel so lost and depressed that I feel as if I need to take my own life to get relief. You should as well.

 

Great post and thanks for summing up my thoughts.

 

I think suicide is the wrong choice but I understand why people do it and it is not horrible and shameful as some on here are saying, you have to understand what the person is going through. I was once very depressed and thought about suicide, and I almost did it. When I left he army they addled me up with prescription drugs and left me to dry with no help, no counseling, no job and having to fight to get my disablity pay. In no time I was getting drunk and high on pills almost everyday, one night I took 5 painkillers and thought about shooting myself, I even held that loaded gun in my hand and just sat there for about an hour thinking about it. In the end I realized how misguided I was and I used the experiance to get clean and move on, I know how lucky I was though since I had family and friends that I could talk, to some whom were going through the same things I was, unfortunately the majority of those who want to kill themselves do not have the support I did.

 

RESPECT

 

Seems quite a few of yous have had the though or have even been close to doing it. Good too see (well hopefully) yous are back on your feet, and still here today.

Which is an example/reason, why i think people should really do their best to get help, saying that I don't know how hard it is to get real successful help.

 

Well i dont think its as selfish as * i know its as selfish as * and its not cowardly either....... no way it takes ammount of some balls to do something like that....


My little brother who was 23 years old hung him self on the 9th of january this year, he survived for 4 days in hospital after me and my older brother found him, but it was too late the damage was done, Every single day i think about him, he was the best he had a great education,great job, he was a marine enigineer on mega mucks, and a never knew anything was wrong with him, he was * hot at everything he done in his life...........


A cant believe he went to that extreme and it * with me every day , i picture my we brothers face most days when we found him, a thought we got him on time but he done that much damage he died of brain damage.......... truly sickens me



So selfish..... YES


A would urge anyone with suicidal thoughts to go and get help............. it destroys the lifes of loved ones left behind, and theres always a way of making it better

 

That must have been terrible Chivs, hope you and your family are coping okay.

 

Sorry to hear that, that's awful.

 

I've had some low moments but I've never considered it.

 

Years ago I was extremely depressed. Birds and money being the main cause. Contemplated it but life's too precious to throw away like that in fairness. Ended it with the girl I've loved my whole life after years together which hurt more than anything but you've got to keep the head up when you're feeling like that because it does get better eventually.

Sorry to hear about that mate, heartbreaking stuff. Thoughts are with you and the family mate.

 

I also had a brother commit suicide 2 years ago and was struggling to write a post on this as to how I felt about it emotionally but you just saved me the trouble mate.

All credit to you, keep the chin up and you are never on your own.

Cheers.

 

I knew two people in high school that did it. One was a friend of mine and he hid his depression well when in public around friends. We knew he had cut himself before, but he seemed a lot better a couple years forward. One day I showed up at school to find out he hung himself by the fan in his room and he left a mix tape of songs about suicide and left a letter for his mom explaining his actions. You have to really be sick to do that, don't think he had a good relationship with his mother either. She of course was devastated and lashed out at all his friends and blamed us, not pretty.

 

Thanks mate i am a strong individual, the first few months are the hardest as you will know but the alcohol and valium helped me a lot, every day is still sore, but it does get easier, i have learned to live with his desiscion even although it was the wrong 1, just say to my self most of the time, thats what he wanted.....


But its us who have to live with it


Av never spoke of it and hate talking about it, suppose it might be easier talking to people who have experienced the same thing.

Thanks to everyone else who posted the messages